if i talk
and
i laugh
TOO LOUD
it's because i'm trying to forget that i'm sad

I'm a Son hiding my depression
I'm a brother making a good impression
I'm a boy sitting next to you
I'm your boyfriend that you always love
I'm you best friend hoping you be there
How does it feel to be uncared
I'm someone whose annotating his poem
I'm sad because life is so unfair
I'm sad because parents treat child like a thug
I'm despise cause they always cared for the smart ones
I'm the one who makes you cry
How does it feel if your parents owned your life?
How does it feel to have your parents cared someones child and family other than you?

i know they want whats best for
but this is too much
im going to be 17 soon
and with kind of atmosphere im growing up in,
i will fail in my life
And why are they so obsess with her friends in Kuala lumpur?
You tell me
you having a 2 test tomorrow and she ask you to put pictures for her in her darn useless handphone
(cause the handphone files is deleted)
i say later
but she say go do now
its important
WhAt IMPORTANT?

Shes telling me Her fucking friend is important than my studies

ok that one never mind
i have project to do on tues so i ask her if i can do it my friend house
she ask
boy or girl
i say both ar 3 girls and 2 boys

at first she say okies
then she go on saying she has meeting at office and stuff
then she say
"eu know wat qayyum..I dont like when eu go people house"
then she say anything can happen wif girls and boys when they are together

i was like wat
Eu mean i go there just to do
SEX

Fuck larh
had enough with this rubbish of hers

Monster!